What does it mean to be humble? We often describe it as meekness, modesty, or submission. But is there a more precise description of humility? To some it comes natural, for me it takes work!
To understand the significance and depth of this word “humble” as Yah revealed it to me, it’s important that you know my story.
For nearly a year I have had consistent and connected visions and other prophetic experiences from Yah. Even to this day, I haven’t realized the entire purpose and implications of these experiences, but over time our Elohim has revealed how all these events are working together for a greater purpose.
Several of these experiences led me to the understanding that my family and I must move to a mountain property in the Northwest Arkansas area. Never having left my home area in South Louisiana, it has been an enormous challenge to be obedient to Yah’s instruction.
Everything I know and love is here. My home and all my things are here, and all of my close-knit family is only a short drive away. I have all the creature comforts one can desire right where I am. I have never “lived off the land” or in the wilderness in my life. So, to pick up and go on this journey to what may as well be a foreign country has been tough to fathom.
Nonetheless, I do want to be obedient and have spent the past few months trying to convince myself and prepare for the unknown journey that lies ahead. In doing so, I did what any decent planner would. I have imagined every possible barrier and acknowledged all of my fears and tried to plan for the worst.
Now all these miraculous experiences are beginning to come together. Once, Yah asked me if I was ready to leave my family and my possessions. HE said, “But where you are going, there will be no more tears, no more pain, and no more suffering.” At the time I thought I was dying, but HE said that I was not dying because I still had work to do. I later realized that this journey that I was beginning would set me apart. It would require me to forsake all the things I had come attached to in this world. However, I still did not know exactly how this would all develop.
In the meantime, Yah gave me an abundance of knowledge and instructed me to share it with my family as HE taught it to me. Yet, HE showed me that they would not listen and I would have to leave without them. I have a much better understanding of these things now.
As time went on, all that HE said was manifested right before my eyes. Nonetheless, I continue to do my best to be obedient. Despite all this, when HE told me to go to Arkansas, I began to struggle with obeying this particular instruction.
Fast forward to this week; Yah placed on my heart to pray for a humbler spirit and to be made worthy of all that HE was doing in me. As a result, I had a series of dreams regarding the mountain property to which He directed my husband and me.
In the first dream, I saw my ancestors ascending out of the mountain to teach me about something of the past, about the history of our people.
In the second dream, I saw my husband and me building bridges, trails, and pathways as a means to overcome certain barriers. Yah gave us a creative spirit to make things work.
In the third dream, last night, I saw glowing words come out of the right corner of the hilltop as I observed from below. I don’t remember the phrase, but a few simple words spoke many messages to my spirit which helped me to understand the characteristics of a humble spirit.
I am sharing this with you because I believe there are others who want to be humble but don’t fully understand its purpose and meaning. Honestly, I never understood what it meant to be humble. I perceived it as an all or nothing concept erroneously thinking that I must either speak the truth and stand up for something or not stand for anything. In my foolish mind, this is what made the difference between being humble and being anything other than humble.
Following the first two dreams, I didn’t comprehend what I had seen. I deduced the first regarding my ancestors was simply a sign that this property was where we needed to be. After the second dream, I figured God was confirming that HE would make ways for us. But when I had the third mountain dream it pulled it all together and gave me a much deeper understanding of God’s Word which HE gave to me for comfort, reproof, and direction.
Through all that I experienced in these three visions or dreams, I learned this:
In the third vision, Yah convicted me for being vain. This wasn’t the first time HE had done so, but it was the first time HE explained what made me a vain person. He demonstrated that it is my tendency to say more than necessary and think and speak what God did not instill in me, which are those things which are not in alignment with HIS will.
Being humble results in speaking as one with authority, thus having no need to add to or dilute the truth we are obligated to express. At the same time, it is not having to point out the fault in others to express our truth.
It is also expressing or demonstrating our position directly without ambiguity or room for error or misunderstanding. For example, rules often say what we should not do, but its real purpose is to tell us what we should do or how we should behave.
One quality of a humble person is that he or she will express what they do or expect, rather than what is undesirable so that there is no room for error. In which case, one would say, “I worship on the Sabbath because it is biblical.” rather than, “I do not worship on Sunday’s because it is not biblical. The latter begs the questions what is biblical and when do you worship, whereas the former directly states the position without condemning the Sunday worshipper.
This is an example of righteous judgment – to be a light to the world by demonstrating through our own lives what is righteous. We are not the Father and should not act as though we know HIS plans and will for another person. At the same time, we are obligated to speak and share the truth that Yah has given us and let HIM work in the lives of others.
Having a humble spirit is ultimately about being in a position to know your authority and your God who gives you authority, to the extent that you never find it necessary to employ vain thoughts, ideas, actions, or words.
Humility is more the opponent of vanity than of pride, which is the cause and effect of vanity.
Vanity in the sight of the Most High is anything that is devoid of God-purpose. This third vision pointed out that my way of thinking was the cause of my vanity. As with this idea of moving to Arkansas, I always imagine all that could go wrong in a situation and try to prepare for those things and make decisions based on the potential adverse effects of a situation and my personal ability to overcome or endure. This is in vain because, in truth, I have no idea exactly what God will do in any given situation. Perhaps, it is his will that I “suffer” to be made whole. In cases where we have been instructed by Yah to do something, this demonstrates a lack of faith, trust, belief, and confidence in our Father. Despite the potential hardships and challenges of doing what he instructs us to do, we should be willing to obey HIM.
So, being humble is more than not speaking at every opportunity or not being prideful. It is harnessing and demonstrating the authority given to us by Yahuwah and trusting HIM whole-heartedly as a small child trust his or her parents. It is also about not speaking or thinking things extracurricular and often opposed to what Yah has spoken in one’s life. Humility is KNOWING that your Elohim will make a path for you when you are obedient to HIS WORD.
Finally, when I had written all these revelations down in my journal, the conclusion regarding this whole journey and these three dreams was revealed. Yah was saying to me that I must go to these mountains to be taught something greater than I can conceive in my mind and that HE would somehow use this big hill in the Ozarks to teach me something greater than all that HE had already taught me.
When I went to the Bible to confirm what I learned, this is what I was led to:
“And thou shalt remember all the way which Yahuwah thy God led thee these forty years in the wilderness, to humble thee, and to prove thee, to know what was in thine heart, whether thou wouldest keep his commandments or no.” – Deut 8:2
“[Yahuwah] who fed thee in the wilderness with manna, which thy fathers knew not, that HE might humble thee, and that he might prove thee, to do thee good at thy latter end; And thou say in thine heart, My power and the might of mine hand hath gotten me this wealth. But thou shalt remember Yahuwah thy God: for it is he that giveth thee power to get wealth, that he may establish his covenant which he sware unto thy fathers, as it is this day. ” – Deut 8:16-18
This move to Arkansas is my and my family’s wilderness experience. The times are changing, roles are about to reverse, and he is making us ready to receive the promise.
The only question that remains is, Will we choose to stay in bondage or be set free in obedience and humility?
As for me and my house, we will endure the wilderness which is purposed for the fulfillment of Yah’s will. I know that it will not be easy, but as HIS WORD says, it is for our good in the end.
“Father forgive me for my vanity and lack of humility and faith in YOUR power, purpose, and word. Give me strength to obey YOU always and to endure whatever comes.”